An Incredible Story of Life Transformation

New year, new you.

Let's talk about God's transforming power stage for the line of fire with your host activist all the international speaker and theologian Dr. Michael Brown your voice of moral cultural and spiritual revolution Michael Brown is the director of the coalition of conscience and president of fire school of ministry get into the line of fire valves like always.

866-34-TRUTH index 866-34-TRUTH zero Jim is Dr. Michael Brown welcome friends to the new year. We are live again here on the modify we play the best of broadcast hope you enjoyed it. Yesterday back with you live again today.

We've got a great week of radio ahead and next week super excited about tomorrow. That little while. Thanks so much for joining us. 866-34-TRUTH is the number is always to call. I was not aware of the concept of new year knew you until Nancy and I'd written her book breaking the stronghold of food and when we were talking with the publisher about it. They said but will have it release the beginning of January that particular year. August 2016 and they said no new year knew you, and then I was working out with my trainer and I told him when the book was coming out. It was all that's great new year knew you. So maybe I'd heard the concerts here and there but I didn't edit and consciously absorb how many people really think okay with the new year and do this again. I guess we do but maybe a little cynical about that over time I've been at this long enough to think okay every day is the same in that respect. And it all depends on how you live your life today in terms of what can happen tomorrow. Nonetheless, nonetheless, many, many, many people do look at the new year in a serious way. Many people say of God to change and this is a marker to clear marker.

Okay, especially with food related stuff because it is Thanksgiving and Christmas in your with family and then vacation time and all that lack of discipline to go To make a change starting with the new year. So encourage I will encourage you today and then at the bottom of the hour.

I'm going to be joined by Luca geographically, I've not spoken with her before, but she has a powerful testimony. She is a former lesbian now serving the Lord, loving the Lord with a great testimony so you will be encouraged by that fact, you can call a friend or text a friend encourage them to tune in. But let let's just talk honestly about bring about change in our lives. The splits be candid right there there's there's no reason to make believe the things just can change on their own that there's no reason to simply think well the same thing about was done but is really different because it's a new year is very different because I just turned 30. It is really different because I just got married is gonna be different because I just moved its government is really different something changes on the inside of us. Because the environment is going to remain the same. Now for years.

For decades for most all of my life.

I was an unhealthy eater.

I was a poster boy for unhealthy eating, not gluttony, but unhealthy meaning what is a boy I had for Oreos for breakfast yeah get up in the morning to go to school mom. My mom would wake me up in my dad is ready out take the train into New York City and I remember I go downstairs in the kitchen and I would take out for Oreos and I would the first one I just eat as is the second one I took the top off and scrape the cream out and then then ate the outside.

The third one as is the fourth one. Open up, scrape the cream out misremembered 1234 I go to school.

Yeah, then not come home for lunch and I had a peanut butter sandwich.

No jelly like jelly on with ever tasted jelly but I decided I didn't like it and for some reason I crossed so my mother would would cut the crust off for me and then I would have great juice that was my drink great gifts and then for dinner. Sometimes it was hamburger and fries. Sometimes it would be a modified spaghetti and meatballs that the real-time style is sometimes tuna noodles for some reason I was another meal we have of and then I have a brownie for dessert. Oh, sometimes before dinner.

I have like a piece of green pepper cucumber like the Prosoft it and then business of stack so I got home from school course at pretzels pretzels and grape juice, a great drink whatever it was, so the SSO I grew up when I was in junior high school every day for lunch I come home for lunch think is the junior high was will be for the Roy middle school: most places today. So for lunch I will have a hamburger and fries and then many days for dinner.

I would have a hamburger and fries yeah and and then if I had breakfast was the same Oreos on enough, I had breakfast and then once I really got turned onto pizza in my teen years. Somewhere past the age of 15 that became a staple diet and for many years as I was on the road in sales and things like that. I had pizza for lunch and spent every day and sometimes I have it twice in a day and of course always chocolate couple times a day at least peanut M&Ms for something else sometimes ice cream so that was my lifestyle.

Even when I was thin in my 20s and super active in all that. Still, that's the way and every so often I get convicted about my sweets.

Addiction is the big thing I never thought about eating pizza or fries, burgers, sweets, addiction so there would be times when I was okay. No sweets. One day a month I'll have chocolate or something like that and I I did that been part of the year or longer and then went back or nothing at all for a month or two and then go back so I was a confirmed chocoholic and I deftly was addicted to these other foods.

And that was my lifestyle fronts so we have to understand is the eye. The idea of me now going for and 1/2 years by God's grace without eating anything unhealthy for 1/2 years of no no chocolate, no sugar for half years of no dairy for 1/2 years ago flower and grilled meat below grilled meat may run once a week. The fact that I've done that is a testimony to God's grace, not a testimony to my willpower. It's a testimony to the fact that if you really cry out and do what you know how to do God will help you. So I went from a high of 275,000 on the big guy, I got away with it a little more than others in most of my friends and think I was obese but I deftly was. It was like a football player NFL player, maybe alignment so he's these overweight and he's wearing like you know sports coat or something like that is big, bulky guy. I look more like that fact was, I was also obese.

My blood pressure was as high as 149 of 103 so we, 275 pounds. My blood pressures high as 149 of Wall Street cholesterol got as high as around 230 is normally around 200 but the problem was the bigger problem that the bad was high and the good was low and then on top of that I had lower back pain all the time. A chiropractor once told us if you lost 30 pounds that back pain would go away and then I had headaches all the time. A good three times a week, maybe more so I just take as little work through it and I was tired a lot. I have intense schedule I was working out traveling around the world going forward, preaching, writing to. I was gone for both get more more worn out and had sleep apnea been diagnosed with that some years earlier of somewhere early 2000. Maybe an even when I was low is 215 pounds. It still had it. And the doctors examinees is nothing we can do surgically to just need to travel with the breathing machine under on the road have one at home so it did that traveling around the world with a breathing machine submissive little hotel in India from front outlet think now out of status of the bed have to lay the other way. Go to the plug the thing and that was that was life always taken an extra machine with me, and so on. By God's grace, not by dieting. I don't diet. By God's grace just taking on a new lifestyle. Nancy help me immensely. We follow guidelines of Dr. Joel Fuhrman health guidelines but not dieting but changing my relationship to food in less than eight months away from 275 pounds to 180 pounds blood pressure one from 149 of 103 down to about 100/65 cholesterol went down to 123 lowest maybe it's been a long thirtyish and the year from hive 230 down, say 123 and the good where high was supposed to be the bad low risk post to be backache to spirit gone goodbye that there nothing was ever had back pain as if I strained my back doing something that's been minor and that's been rare that lower back pain. It was their all-time gone, and headaches, friends, I have not had a headache and foreign half years had never happened any stretch of time in my life before the 4 1/2 years that headache. My immune system off the charts better.

My energy level off the charts better all in on the breathing machine anymore. I went from very severe to very mild and according to the sleep doctor permission to ignore. So he's British and the means when I travel around the world only to be caring, breathing machine, plug it in overseas and overseas flyers of light and cover my head with a blank adult enough to do that by God's grace so I God change my pallets. It is true. Your your pallet pallets as it might might my taste buds. My pallets single. It is true that your taste buds will crave what you feed them. So every day when I make a massive salad for dinner. I I look forward to now. I'm on the same relationship to food that I once did know it was doesn't play the same big role in my life that used to edit and by the way have stayed pretty much within about 10 pounds of that ideal weight that I have been pretty much steadily around their visit. If you live like this steadily or if I can be putting on extra weight so when Ivan was Master South were done at the time the food is that the body wants it once bulky this on calories. So why is St. so I make a massive dinner salad everything I put in there and and then have the healthiest lowfat low-sodium, dressing like I can use in their Nancy my dressings. It is done in the past as well, but when I'm done with that thing in the Philippines and therefore protein.

I would've paid you. I would've paid you money in the past, I would've paid you money in the past not eat beans. Literally, I would've gladly fasted the skip that don't just on one now Beans in my salad every day post with protein and other things like that and not only to get teeth like 45 minutes because it's so much but the calories and that roughly equivalent to the calories and maybe a king-size candy bar. Some of that digital one hand eaten a few seconds are done with it all. When I had comprehensive blood test done 11 months ago conference of 17 pages worth the boyfriend of well-known medical doctor in California and I'm off the charts healthy by the grace of God category if the category of the categories.

If God could help a food lamplight media lifelong NL theater chocoholic being courage can help you to the very fact here on the line of fire with your host Dr. Michael Brown, the voice of more cultural and spiritual revolution.

Here again is Dr. Michael Brown will back friends to the line of fire broadcast to start the new year we put together a special package for you to integrate prices well. It's the book that Nancy and I wrote were breaking the stronghold of food and it's practical. It's full of wisdom Nancy's contribution form shall respond in the book and then there is a four CD set and I actually coached you and encourage you on the CDs, how to get started.

Practical steps to take. How to work things through spiritually.

I'm not a nutritionist of the Nancy's carefully studied nutrition for many years several decades.

She's not a nutritionist.

This is not a matter of me giving you medical advice and not qualified to do that every so often. Every so often someone will write a note to us asking for medical advice. Dr. Brown I'm suffering from. Listen such symptoms do you think is this so that we have to write back say were so sorry we can't dispense medical advice from another medical doctor of a PhD.

Dr. Andy on my doctoral dissertation was on the. The Hebrew word for healing in its ancient near Eastern context of that's true but not a medical doctor, so this is not medical advice. It's spiritual practical advice down to earth where we live.

Advised to go to my website. The packages available on the website asked Dr. Brown a SKDR Brown.org use your right on the homepage.

The book plus the four CD sets will be offering that all this week. Obviously, for yourself or for friends or loved ones. I joke about things and I say look but let's go back four years and time four years ago and I get off and I say to bunch of Christians say on the radio.

What's more likely is for the go back for your try remember back four years was more like Donald Trump will be the next President of the United States will be a national wave of revival in America overwhelmingly overwhelmingly you would say national wave of revival in America overwhelmingly I very, very few were Saddam Trump been expressed for years five years ago, doubtless take it further I get up and say okay which is more likely the B national revival at Sweetser America or Donald Trump will be the next President of the United States largely with the help of white evangelicals will get behind him because he such a champion of the pro-life movement.

Write short you say overwhelmingly overwhelmingly national revival in America over whelming very the tiniest tiniest tiniest minority would've seen that of the scenario now for everybody who knew me, but he knew me go back for five years go by.

Five years and I say which is more likely Donald Trump been expressed in United States lawyers with the help of white evangelicals who will vote for him because of his strong pro-life support or I will become the poster boy for healthy three pot; it's easy to Trump. That's how unlikely it is that I'm sitting here is a champion for healthy eating, and encouraging you that you too can break the stronghold for this the only day of the week I will be talking about this, but I want to encourage you, whether it's in the area food. So are our book in particular with the CDs will help with is another area we want to change.

Let me encourage you to do this. Don't try to change everything at once. Don't look at me that's wrong. Focus on one thing. Focus on one specific thing and then take one specific step to bring that pass will be all over the place of the okay became acrylic deeper. I can be next to the kids and work under my job I got I get a reason were there.

I can witness more.

I got it fast more I get a start. Well you are getting more and and then of course to change my diet and then a bandage can get rid of that you you probably like to get anything done with that kind of attitude is it's admirable to recognize lots of errors that want to change a thing we can all relate to that.

But what's the biggest area with the clear what's what's the first area we are we willing to take steps you gotta take a step or you say II don't I know I need to change but I don't want to write first step is get along with God and for God. I will be totally honest.

I know this is wrong in my life.

I know this relationship with is wrong. I know this lifestyle is. I know I should have this addiction. I know it's wrong, I know I should change, but II don't want to. I need help start their start there with honesty here rather than make endless excuses and think that those excuses are so powerful. Remember the excuses you make seem so powerful you and someone else makes the same excuses Junior try you kidding me as a line as they had ever heard. Trust you have of done everything so readily excuses the house. Regardless it comes to food, I have to confess some food. Gotta have to confess I'm a glutton and she said it right out glutton and and and Musser right, lifelong, unhealthy eating habits and and was addicted to certain foods. Better to be honest about God those anyway and end reality is reality so you can avoid the scale you can avoid putting certain close all you can avoid certain things. It doesn't change reality doesn't know so start with reality. Start with being honest and take whatever step you Hannah for me was medical turkey. I came to Nancy and August 23.

I been crying out to God for months little that I know she had been crying out to God for months. She was especially concerned about my health, knowing that the way I live just as the ticking time bomb with high blood pressure. The way I live does play with fire. I knew it was unwise to live the way I live, but much more. I just, I knew I needed to change a new for my gospel witness a full before the Lord. The discipline I live with needs to be manifest in evident so I was crying out she'd been crying out she'd been praying, God give me creative ideas for my give me creative ideas so I could I could think of things that that he would want to try to eat because I'm I was a full lamp. I hardly ate any different foods for decades, even traveling around the world served all kinds of thing.

Actually, I did Fortran find a way of eating it was it was a village in India where they are the gospel since they could just have the will was set before was a food with a food web. I sit for years I I would rather I would rather face an angry, hostile, potentially violent crowds and try new foods and I live that out. I practice what I preach. Trust me, I live that out. The good and the bad. She didn't pray.

So I came for August 23, 2014 message for my plan is not working. My pleasant work. In other words, women living on incremental change era Katella peanut M&Ms here… Have Ben & Jerry's chocolate ice can hear that was PC there.

It wasn't working and for years I tried to email cut down on fried foods down on red meat, cut down on cheese content a little dog try to cut back your cutback will did not wasn't working like there's getting heavy. My blood pressure is getting higher so I came to her and was code sheet. We have these discussions we had in the past. This is my plan is not working and it and remember I'm travel around the world. Shortly after I came to her in August. I had to be in Singapore then I had to be in Hungary that I had a be in India that I have a be in Malaysia and in other states.

I travel the world a posse to carry on healthy living with all these different locations in traveling and on and on and on. I said to my plan is not working. She said only eat what I give you. In other words, nothing passes your lips. No food passes your lips that might prove us in right to do. Trust me, this was like in this is was completely empty pot completely impossible for me not possible you have a chance, but God gave Grace and I recognized her for me was cold turkey. Three miserable days of withdrawal.

It was harder for me to go talk with you apparel God is my witness God as my witness, and 1/3 day for the preheating cry out, God helped and then the breakthroughs in the ditches came, there was a matter of of change my mindset change my mentality and how it related to food foods. My building reward at the end of a long day of preaching to the hotel room and eat what I want each of you on long flights, eat what I want to eat at the airport, eat what I want to eat specialists, eat what I want to eat. It was my rewards how to reprogram my thinking and that's you send me encouragement every day and testimonies every day from others who transfer the laws to healthy eating in pictures and things like that and and getting all the food prepared and tell me eat this only this song and then we traveled we planned in the hello I'm Aurora Singapore III brought my luggage this in your over. I said, but no, I have this know status is sorrier over and had to pay $250 for luggage, but was worth it because it was part of the lifestyle change and I had to be consistent, even if it was costly in those days, and who has an extra $250 spent on luggage like I just had to put the choice. Bottom line is, now it's business as normal is normal Thanksgiving. I can be around everybody that Haviland is unhappy with myself. Everybody you know. Maybe I'm a vacation. People reading this are that's I'm good.

I'm enjoying I'm I'm glassed in my life is overflowing. So when I wrote once I recognized God was helping with atonement. Don't mess with this. It's always like you, you flap your wings and you start flying is like don't don't question it does keep lien but so that's what happened with me flap your arms. We don't have wings. So once I recognize God's grace kicked in and I was being supernaturally help the thought.

Okay, don't mess with this and I've been amazed. I don't boast about my willpower. I don't boast about my strength. I don't boast about my discipline I boast about the Lord's strength out of my weakness. Yes, I'm discipline in many areas of life. Yes I am a hard worker in the Lord, but I boast in the grace of God, especially when it comes to food transformation. So friends I settle out to see if you could help me he could help you is no favoritism in God thing. Gracie gave you to give me so get hold of the book and the CDs we coach you along. I think you be blessed encouraged. Share with friends new year, new you.

We come back on the speak with a woman who has a testimony far more profound than food transformation. Want to miss this number and gives the line of fire with your host Dr. Michael Brown, the line of fire now by calling 866-34-TRUTH here again is Dr. Michael Brown welcome welcome to the new year is now happy, blessed 2019th you and I will want to sign a check today 2019 and normally when you get into a new year. Your your thinking old if you put in the date on something in the last years date but immediately it really kind of felt like to 19 2019 was was here, and upon us maybe were eager to get out of the last year into the new speaker on new I would encourage you with the power of the gospel to transform lives would encourage you with the power of the gospel to change us from the inside out, and you may be listening now, you may be watching online, and you're saying, but it's just like the core of my being is not right or this thing so deep-seated me that need change. Jesus is the Savior. Jesus is the one who transforms I'm looking at before and after pictures here of Luca joke properly. We've never met, we never talked one of my friends and colleagues began to share some of her testimony with us and we thought what a great way to start the year with this testimony so Luca great to have you on the air. Thanks for joining us today hi Dr. Brown how you doing doing very well and and where are you right now as we speak. I'm in Florida, Minnesota.

Okay, so Luca I know very little about your background, your testimony was so highly recommended to me by a friend.

I thought let's let's go ahead and do this so some of our viewers just saw before and after picture of you of is listening on radio.

Just hearing your voice let's take us back tell the story to our listeners what they need to know about who you were and who you are and I'll dive in and ask more questions along the way but start wherever you want to start okay well it'll be another person who was molested by a family member and friend for a couple years. It really left a mark on my life and brought me to a place of the other myths believed that girls were going to be victims than men were abusers I felt that noise. I subconsciously made a choice that it be in agreement being a victim.

I can't live that night. I did that so, I know I told my family there wasn't any protection. It never got dealt with, and so I realized it was up to me to take care of myself and I think subconsciously I decided to do something to make yourself a note. Be safe and how how old were you when the abuse was taking place about 10 or 11 years old when it started, so you're at your stories similar sadly to with others have shared that when they went to their parents. Their parents didn't believe it's not that the parents were bad parents is much is the just and trust with the kid was and what what what happened when you went your folks and told her what was going on. I recall getting grounded for a day or two, but that was I don't recall that going on.

Anything after that.

So there wasn't any keeping me safe.

There wasn't any protection from that, nothing to prevent it from happening again soon associate as you look back subconsciously. You made a certain decision so it did when you were 10, 11 were you conscious of like being attracted to boys or was that just not quite there yet not quite there yet.

Well I had a little crush and when I do have to say that every album yeah thought I did have an attraction to to a male before you know, I grew to puberty I so so now you subconsciously use you made this decision about this is what it means to be a woman being a victim. Then I can be a woman.

So what happens now is as you coming to puberty and you begin to develop as a young woman with what's going on in your life well so I really had broken okay. I learn to detach from myself and learn separated from. I felt I started to wear my brothers close one day and when I looked at myself with his clothes on.

I felt different okay. I felt strong. I felt powerful. I didn't feel like when I looked in the mirror at myself. I felt very weak and very ashamed and I couldn't guilty myself to clean myself so the dressing in my brothers close really, with the help for me to not feel like a total total disgrace and pig for being molested.

The worst thing is my body responded to his touch and that really left a mark on me that really destroyed the center of white what you know thinking there's something wrong with you was accruing to puberty, I realized I need love I felt like I needed love. I didn't know where I was going to get that love, but I knew that when I felt when I dressed like a boy that there was a different feeling in me and so I began to dress more and more invoice clothes and found a way to meet girls and to start to portraying myself as a boy to them and I got away with that. I got away with it for many years. Pretending to be a boy and however that just started to bring out more and more rage and more anger in me and hostility so so yes this thing just as you are now living this this life as as a boy as a male, and present yourself like that to two girls were were you thinking of yourself as a male when you think of yourself as a lesbian who like to identify as as a boy and a woman trapped. I felt like I was a man trapped in a woman's body that how it felt like you know I'm right. More than that. I felt like I just didn't want this body because it betrayed me.

I didn't want anything to do with that. It hurt me responded to my brother touching me that at that hurt me and so I didn't want it I rejected it so yeah that makes explaining. I think it helps a lot of people understand some of some of the conflict in an Eagle. A lot of times people just think of sexual abuse of a child being a sibling being an adult is a bad marketing but it really messes with people on though expert and this is a psychologist, but I've heard from enough people hundred test must first realize it messes with kids and so many different ways potentially as susu. This is six explaining it.

So if you're female body responded to something that was that wrong will then you're female body is betraying you and is not safe. So now I now dress up in boys closing feel more at home with yourself so you identify now is as a boy trapped in a girl's body was a man trapped in a woman's body was the transgender movement. Anything that you would heard of it that point to her sex change surgery with these things that you heard about any possible options at that time I would really the only person like that. Strange, odd make them connect.

I didn't relate to anybody on my family did end up taking me to the program in human sexuality at the University of Minnesota. Years later he started to see something's wrong with me right and they will put me through a battery of tests throughout the also funded by the Kennedy Institute.

By the way God it okay look day I went to a series of MMPI and a few others and they concluded that I had gendered aporia. But what is that means that that's when your form is the hormone figure chromosomes don't match and basically they're telling me God made a mistake. So I said what am I to do about this and they said most people end up killing themselves or you can have a sex change that that will that's perfect because I don't like that I don't like my body. I hate it. I don't want anything to do with it for sex change seemed like a great alternative that the great escape. Little did I know at that point that Was the answer for me so how old were you at this point how long how long you live like this and how old were you when you went in for these exams go 11 or 10 or 11. The abuse started 17 is when I started to go to the University of Minnesota and 46 is when I met the Lord so I lived from about 17, 18, 18 full-time pretending to be a man until about 32 I quit dressing as a man and started to live my life as a lesbian, so at 46 when everything changed so you know my met mask held you now okay so are friends for the for those who think about this little for now she has feelings for little while.

This was came and went. Know your you're talking about something dominating a life for a period of roughly 35 years and in a very very major undeniable way for for 20+ years and remember how old you were when they recommend a sex change surgery.

I was about 18 years old so you're okay you are that you are that young at that point and you said, seem like an answer to you. So what did you do when they presented that option to in order for me to help fix change, I first had to live in the role of the fact rhino. I've got my name changed Travis and then Shelley and then I got a job and worked and presented myself to the world as a male. They accepted me as a male. My family accepted that and then that's after that and for seven if you live that way for seven years been underqualified to know have formal treatment two years of formal treatment after that then you qualify for exchange.it's so within that time you ended up just identifying us as a lesbian instead at about 30 then I identified, but until that I was identifying a man, but I never went further with the formal treatment. I never went into clearly into effect change. I just something really stopped me at that always felt something in me wasn't right about that. Having effect change. I couldn't identify it. I didn't know what it was. I just always felt like don't go further than here.

There is deftly God's mercy along the way and nowadays you talk about seven years, living a certain way and then two years, hormones, etc. in the process. Is this a whole lot faster than that in many places in the know.

Now the kids of the early stages are being encouraged to dress differently and live differently, identifies the six offices with their biological sex.

So I'm looking here it's at your picture before and after and before it says on the right speech on the right in my mug shot during one of my many arrests and then the one on the left, smiling broadly, after being Jesus. So we come back let's talk about where your life hit bottom in the arrests and what Jesus is done in you how he's done it, and what he's done all I want to major on that we come back friends. Maybe you have a friend or love or maybe yourself struggling with gender confusion struggling with same-sex attraction. If God did this for Luca do it for you, stay right here it's the line of fire with your host activist, author, international speaker and theologian Dr. Michael Brown voice of more cultural and spiritual revolution get into the line of fire.

Now, 86643 here again is Dr. Michael Brown I'm speaking with Only former transgender former lesbian now enjoying new life and freedom in Jesus look at what would you get arrested for how that happened. Well, it happened a lot.

I was very angry because of like happening to me. All of the abuse that feeling protected in just you know I started to get involved in the occult, a little bit and took a lot of anger in me because nothing was right in the light inside was just always in the constant turmoil. I never felt like I was anywhere you know is like a piece of puzzle, always trying to you know when you're trying to do a puzzle and you like the picture to the picture to the here I didn't fit anywhere and it caused constant strife in me. Yeah, that came out as an old I was controlling was angry. I would mean because my life was so out-of-control I had to control other people so I could have some sort of control. God is so how do you come to know Jesus and what is he done in your life. Old board. You know I living with a woman in love with and when I moved in with her.

She let me know that I needed to go to church and which I found to be a little ironic, but I thought well it meant keeping the girl for me so I'll go. I don't care to know God didn't really matter to me whatsoever. One way or another, so I went to church and my first day there, I felt something going on in my heart and it was like pulling sensation of a rope attached to me was pulling me up for prayer and I can't stop this, so I know tonight that what's happening to me that God is calling you you need to go get prayer so I will jump in here is obviously the irony of all this is students jumping out so your living with another woman.

You believe in love with each other to limit so you are both living as lesbians but she's a churchgoing lesbian who encourages you to go to church and then recognizes the Holy Spirit working in your life how you sort that out well.

It was a very hard profit for me in late-night.

All I know is God was loving me. That's all I know and I don't know how to sort that out. All I know is God can use anybody he wants to. Yeah, so from her perspective, God was calling you to salvation, she was the thing God is calling you. Also, the holiness is this thinking God is was to save you the same way she thought she was saved and OKC can both follow Jesus ago to church together and live as lesbians. Alright, so I'm not sure yeah okay that you that's that's my my take from a distance.

Alright so what happens in God's work in your life, your lesbian partner tells you that the Holy Spirit of God is calling you what happens for prayer and something happened to me. They prayed for me.

I hit the ground. I melted to the port and I think kept crying. I couldn't stop crying with a different cry was like a really deep leasing cry, and went on for about what I felt like 20 minutes and I couldn't get up and when I was able to finally get up. I felt like like someone took a backpack off me and I felt light and I couldn't explain why I didn't know what happened I just went home and went well, okay, that was interesting. And then God started to work on my life and in the process that took me two years to come out of the lifestyle once I started going to church but you know he there was a moment when I remember looking down at my girlfriend's hands when we were watching a movie together and I looked at our hands together and they said what I thought to myself why am I holding a woman's hand woman and I'm created for man, and I thought, why am I having the hot and I couldn't understand what was going on but God just kept revealing himself to me and every time I would go to church. I just felt that all Dr. Brown.

It was like such a spirit of conviction like my life at home wasn't.

Suddenly it started to not match up when I'm at home in my life.

The church didn't match and I started to feel like a hypocrite, but by God. Something's gotta change. I don't know what to do about this and then my pastor started talking about people hold onto his life will lose it, and he diluted it for my sake will find it and I thought what is this mean and God for started to deal with me and he showed me that I don't have to live this way you know if I have better for you.

Do you want that you know it was that was that you want sort of a moment where I knew it was like the rubber met the road but I gotta make a decision that you know pastor was talking about weighing the cost and I thought I got a way to cost onto my life. I could end up in hell if I don't I could if I give my life to the Lord. Can I have eternal freedom and know that I'm going to be with him in the end, so it was a very hard decision and I was very Preston was really a hard choice for me to make, but once I realized that the only choice was to fix my eyes on Jesus and give him my life. What who cares about what's over there. I'm going to swing in what room is better that's that's the gospel for every human being the same, however, have the person's male-female Gay straight, young, old, Hindu, Buddhist, Muslim, Jew atheists same gospel same message same truth so you're actually in it. Your your friend, and brought you to to gospel preaching church.

In other words yeah Pentecostal church and that's where she was gone so it wasn't like it a gay affirming liberal, church that okay so that explains why the Holy Spirit was working again. It makes it odd that she was going there. So at it just really quickly. What happened to her is your coming under conviction and telling her how she responds. I don't know I am not at liberty to say what it was okay but I know that my life is a testimony to God and not enough said. Alright, so God works in you is conviction deepens over to your. Your chains are so now it's the rest your life knows your it's your new life now. It's the liberty you have in Jesus. We just got a couple minutes but tell everyone listening right now. What is Jesus done in your life who are you now what what kind of life are you enjoying in the Lord, missionary to mainly to Israel.

I love Israel and the Jewish people. But, also in Minnesota here in word focal note thing right here in the Twin Cities area but I'd I just fell in love with the Lord that love that I never had.

I found him and he just became my everything I eye my heart. The store filled with joy with him and what I have with him for much greater than anything I could ever have anywhere I'd I don't know why I would. I don't know why anybody wouldn't want to have to feel like my whole life. I ate hot dogs and all of a sudden somebody dinner to sneak to the filet mignon. You know it.

Why would anybody want to go back Jesus had everything that we need and all we have to do is say yes there is a through the freedom in him there is such a such a so tender and so kind and so loving that you will never push you. He just could come to me come to me, that means love you and him loving were able to have relief and say I trust you I trust you yes was good and we can let go of all of our fears and anxiety. But we have to know he's good and weak. We can trust him that that is the truth is new license. I don't remember his teenager heavy drug use for coffee was meeting the laureth when my friends rested about transformation wasn't doing drugs will directly explain this in a believing dog food all my life now. I tasted stake so similar similar analogy and then it doesn't matter.

I'm not ask about marriage or anything like that or plans, but you now feel at home just in your own body or you to live without the sense of deep conflict that you live with all those years. I do find me. I have no more strife there is no fighting. No, I did 99% of the time I'm just seriously overjoyed anybody knows me that I'd I just am in love with the Lord. I love his way and there there the night and day different. I have total freedom.

I have absolutely no life to worry about Jesus. That's knowing him is eternal life knowing him is the very meaning and essence of life in any and him supposed peace and inform us of joy in the midst of trial test and an if if your many are watching now in your skeptic or you think that nobody changes like this. Can I just ask you question why and and I'm Lou, I'm asking everyone else write those loosely good viewing. Why would this woman lie to her self.

It's not like she's on the payroll of some ministries he's going around the world and getting paid to give a testimony you're hearing it right from the source. She that she knows the life she lived in front of you want me to believe your story you tell me your battles.

Hey I'm telling you believe Lucas story because she's telling you firsthand and you don't need to be a psychologist or psychiatrist to say this woman speaking the truth. This woman is a changed woman. This woman is a free woman Luca you put hope in the hearts of many you've put encouragement the hearts of many, and you have really glorify Jesus. He shines through you as you speak.

If folks want to find out more be in contact with you. What's the best way to do that.

Over the rainbow. God, they can contact me. There are struggling. You want to talk? But seriously, it is nothing I could have done on my own God's Holy Spirit moved in he moved in with full power.

All this is SSL that is the power of the gospel is just thanks so much for enriching us to glorify the Lord today. God bless you John