Spiritual Purple Heart Wounds After Hours

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So sit back and masculine journey after hours start welcome to messenger the after hours and you have a great topic this week. I'm just excited about it. We had more clips and we had and I don't how long they weren't all from India Rodney which is amazing and he didn't even submit a clip writer. You had a good evening overnight. Using and try to get another one not know that you become: no okay yeah exactly. It's a great topic in the clips usually dictate that daily credit where credit is due at your topic soon tells of it about though. It's spiritual wounded in the story to bring hope to others, and so you talking about your woundedness in a spiritual sense from your heart and could be physical wounds.

As you said earlier still your lot and that you that our stories can bring other people hopeful actually set it in the email that I error the texturing that told you didn't read that I did visit you in the Purple Heart Purple Heart right you know me would been through some stuff that's really kind of scam shot up little bits and wounding it but that's not the final part of our story, so did you read the text or not read Scripture in your flip-flop on either is used in that area as well and as a right right where it skims another one other causerie dinners and that's a Boudin version of his hand to say that if you're from Uno not making time you make from the book back to the topic and handed so we have a whole bunch of clips order to get another one here pretty soon and so it's not your clip the microphone is to let you do it because it's I think of it as our clip Sam on this one. I just snuck it in first and that's amazing because that rarely happens.

This is good Will hunting and I think we probably have this on the show.

We deftly had a boot camp. But this is a deeply wounded young man and his name is will and I never can remember Russia William Stein Sean is his counselor is having anger management counseling and that one thing that is not in this clip that is kind of important for our topic is and were going into this hearing about how will was beaten, but the one point will ask Sean if you had any experience with this and they says was saying it. Yes I said no I mean have you personally have experience with it.

I said yeah he was beaten by us is that father usually will admit interesting times were when he was wearing his rings were jumping in here where will is talking about his abuse situation is a ranch is about to say choose.

I ranch foster so I know it is like Will has an attachment disorder is all that stuff. Abandonment is that while that what I wrote about this, talk about this is not your fault is not your fault. I now felt. It's not your fault with me right don't you. This is more of a major breakthrough may sound like in the clip because will is totally control his emotions in every situation we see these brilliant so they could pull that off, but the one thing that really got to me in this related to our topic was will ask him if he had experience with that. And I, wondered if he would've trusted him with his heart, and with that breakthrough. If he had just been a counselor that had dealt with it in the past, as opposed to experiencing himself as you listen to the great point soon as you listen to that.

How many times to the Sean half the time it's not your fault. You and Lowe's replies yeah I know, I know it's my fault and there's this whole in my mind i.e. I may know it's not my fault but in my heart there still a fortified area that has been written and so you have Chandra keeps on that. You know, like a dog a bone anything right and making sure he's is on it until will finally hears it, and finally believes it to be true because that deepest place that's very, very hard to dig into and grasp is called forgiving ourselves and and that's what's underneath.

It's not my fault.

Like of course you know you Satan is made such a great case for you. And when everyone is that you got yourself in the best and it is all your fault that my own experience with that clearly have time and time again as I and this is the place that it requires Jesus in my opinion right that it was what he did on the cross that actually paid for what it was that I that was my role in that, but also provided me with an avenue where I could in fact forgive myself, because the most difficult place in anyone I've ever gotten down into to get the healing is is right at that point and you know it's not the only clip we use a boot camp right here. It's not your fault, but that knowing it's not your fault in your mind and accepting it in your heart are are far far far different things, but it is Danny's product and everybody from the topic it it it is there in your heart that that's what Jesus is going after. This is your whole heart. You're exactly right Ravi that you know what ends up happening, at least for me and in some of the major wounds God's work on in my life is all get to the point where forgive the other people. That's not the final place of forgiveness and final place of forgiveness is where the enemy as you said had me twisted and tied around how it was my fault in some way and I needed that breakthrough ends at the slack last boot camp on something I've been praying about for quite a while in on it took a person coming up to me to got lights and stuff on their heart to talk to me when the attendees at the camp and then through our listing paradigm and it and those are people that didn't know that part of my story.

Many some of it that they didn't know to the debts that they spoke into pregnant coming from boot camp. I feel significant freedom because I was at a point now where I can let that down and forgive myself right and I think what's key about that and an appointment was ringing up with happy times. He had said is God's right there with us. He always is he never going to leave this but I times he chooses to use helpers to come along and guide us through that someone it's been down that journey before and that's every one of our ability to do that if we like I do that I would be willing to bet that 90% of people listening are the same but we made. I am the hardest person for me.

Forgive quick to do it. In fact, I think anybody with even a modicum of compassion is forgive others before they get themselves sorry. 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