Words For My Feelings

So there is a little secret that maybe some of our listeners don't know about you, it's not legacy kindness. So every time we go to a movie at the theater or at home. Dave cries he cries at movies like firehouse dogs like this family joke on me know she and watch firehouse dog that I did on an airplane on a mission trip back. My six-year-old son sit beside me and he looks over he goes you're seriously crying at firehouse Doris's little dog that lived in the firehouse and got lost and they find them at the end and I wanted tear it up so he does that, but in real life, you seldom cry, and that thing that were like you asking kindness. I have no idea.

Welcome to family life today where we want to help you pursue the relationships that matter most and Wilson Dave Wilson and you can find his family life today.com or on our family life. His family life today. I don't know it's a joke. I've cried movie theater in the dark have a hard time feeling in life where he sat down those feelings, he will bring Ron deal and have their trunk and counted me so I need to learn how to feel. Since that we've got diversity can help me learn out of your according welcome Courtney Rice Lake to family today are good beer with a sink and got to be and you wrote a book called teach me to feel dead just for me and Courtney is the managing director at reason motherhood.

She's an author of teach me to feel and glory in the ordinary quite how many years to get married to Daniel 12 years on 312 Daniels from our hometown and a lot of people from Findlay, Ohio Daniel so he knows about Wilson's hamburgers, yes, which is actually slightly this ice cream in the world teaches you have four sons, but listen to things give me more anxiety ordering hamburger… Like this like Seinfeld etiquette.

Oh yeah so I redo the drive through yeah yeah you have four sons yet. How old are they 88, six, and almost 4 so you had twin boys. I dead and I have four boys my third son looks about the same size my twins and triplets.

How well do people stop you all the time why they say they say they all yours, in one or triplets or are you to go for a girl all by satellite and I'm not like I keep having children. I would keep having voice probably they're pretty finer than a girl. Boredom has insanely in sentence and he's in her 70s also. I was like the rising name. It's just just Courtney yeah I want you to know that I have 12 nephews, so no granddaughters. One when our kids started having kids. I thought surely working again girl and we did grow its talk about teach me to feel with the subtitles worshiping through the Psalms in every season of life that I love. I start the book as you talk about this time you go to the hospital pregnant right tell us what happened because you end up staying there longer than you thought right my fourth son was a hapless interruption of my fourth son, which is our life-threatening pregnancy complication and I was 33's pregnant when I went into the hospital and thought at first it may be like midnight rupture which would've been preferable to having a pleasant direction that my eruption I would been home probably next few days like in the hospital for three weeks as on monitors on continuous monitoring and can take care my other children.

My husband couldn't go home and take care of them were. It was very very touching go crisis situation where even the doctors didn't want him going home because they thought if he went home that fit into going to OR immediately, and he would even be there for the birth and so you're saying this was life-threatening not only for the baby but for you yet so pleasant.

Eruption is my with a partial abruption, but of full abruption gives you about 5 to 10 minutes to save the baby in about 15 minutes to say the mom because you bleed to death. A lot of options are what are called exile interruptions where you can't always for them and you can't see them. They can't ultrasound ever. And for not bleeding and there's no real indication that having someone with pain to leasing me something was going on to the pain was a good indicator that we couldn't we just didn't know in that monitoring was a good indicator of how well been misfiring and he wasn't faring well when I was having pain and having contractions so my parents lived in Florida at the time so they came and took my other boys home to Florida with them because weeds can care for them. There is a period of time. I can evenly my hospital room. I remember thinking hospital bed rest. If you like outbreak prior to being on hospital bed rest like TV you food magazines and for me I just couldn't think of their been the health crisis. You can always gather your thoughts to do anything and so for me I was in this concentrated Punic of our thinking to be okay today. It was over about my children and so I have my Bible and I just read the Psalms and God's kindness I had studied the Psalms prior to that in a Bible study that whole year prior and had really kind of grown to understand how God had orchestrated pregnant together with their intended purpose was for in the canon of Scripture, but also for God's people share a little bit of that with us. Yeah, I did you learn the Psalms are the Psalms is like I need to go try can encouragement for my dad, I'm getting out of the Psalms right hand and a lot of encouragement and then I'm in there a lot of free mobile verses in the Psalms we don't understand how to read them because their poetry is what I learned a couple things I learned is first is that they are often written concurrently with what's happening in the historical books and said there on top of the historical books and when you read something in first or second Samuel, there's a light has a corresponding Psalm to go along with that and actually eliminates what happening in the historical books is that these are reflections of God's people in the midst of very real historical events helpful in understanding that David felt this way, or even Moses wrote some of the Psalms. Moses felt this way or Moses was expanding this then write a poem, or song back to the Lord is really helpful.

Is it the Psalms are structured. Whoever put the Psalms in the book we don't know who did who compiled them, but they were Israel's hymnbook. There is real songs they sang and their intro songs they sang during exile and what's interesting about how their particular, the five books of them. Each book has its own kind of tone.

The first couple books are heavier and tone in that there's a lot of lament and a lot of sorrow and it gets more helpful as the books and books are easily darkened and he gets more helpful as it goes on and tells a story of the Christian life is that while we lived through a lot of difficulty in lot of hardship were ultimately headed his hopefulness because we know the end of the story so you here in the hospital study yes. I eating yes that help as I wasn't studying outages reading because I do not study prior to you had studied prior yet. All I could do was just kind of read and just think about it, I would journal about it and just kind.

Journal of the house feeling and praying was helpful to me about someone and to set up the book of Psalms and seven someone into you see this is how the world is supposed to be an immediate meeting some three which is so much difficulty with David's sons turning against him so much suffering right at the front end of the Psalms is that someone caused by meditating on God's word day and night will be like a tree planted by streams of water, which means you're going to grow into flirt even in the midst of a lot of difficulty because you have written to dig down deep to the nourishment of water, which we knowns capture is often used to talk about the way that God nourishes us and said in Psalm two tells us the end result with the king, there's can be a Kingston rule and reign rightly over all things, and so what I found is that all that legwork on the backend. When things were going well in my life where I studied the word and I put in the hard work of meditating on God's word. I was able to reap the bit of that in a really, really hard time when I couldn't do a lot of study I could just read like a Psalm or two here and there in the house.

I did read yes yes so take us back to that take us back to the bed when you're in there. He had to be so worried I was really worried and any type of like traumatic situation you're not really able to process how you feel. In that moment, but for me I found in the hospital that when I would read of people crying out to God at work. Like in Psalm 27 like I believe I'll look on the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. I wanted to believe that I would see God's goodness and so not only did I find prayers to pray back to God. But I also found familiar friends. I was like I'm the first person who has been in so much distress about whether or not my life is going to be delivered and I found it was comforting to me as it is almost as if God was showing me through his word that I hear you. I know I know that this world is broken in heart.

I know it's really difficult. I know you're terrified but I'm here to hear your prayers.

I'm here to hear your cries for help. I'm here to hear your anxiety and your fear and I'm ready willing to sustain you while you're waiting for me. I was really hopeful before I talk with us in the book as well.

We had a lot of medical crises, her family and friends are born eight weeks premature and they were in the hospital having twins. It is hard. In general, so it was just a really hard year when airborne dinner in my Bible really ever and that are free in my life. I really struggled to come to terms of what it meant to be a mom and what it meant to set matters, giving up everything for these babies who I thought in my head was a great idea before I had them and then I'm in the middle of it.

I like business but I didn't read the Bible and even though the night with feeding has a mentor and encourage me like maybe like listen to the Bible and I watch TV shows my phone instead seem to so many mom urges you to warn Ron to watch TV show when you're feeding your baby is no like Versant but from listener what you he didn't produce much fruit is for a pretty bitter fruit Yanai I didn't have any perspective the Lord was kind to give me a do over, and to allow me to see that pouring the word into my life was going to reap fruit, even if MMI circumstances were really scary and hard, but that God was going to stay me to the word and for me that is the message of someone and for so many people who can see the Lord do that in their lives. Is that what you important is what's going to come out when it's hard to I know that is 2020 started over a year ago. Yeah, every year January 10 Michael K when we want to read this year in the Bible is the one your Bible. She's gone through the Wunderlich 17 years in row house Jesus likes so I decided, you know not no one coverts, and right. Guess what I said to read the book of Psalms is your 50 yes I can be in a hurry if I take some want to take two or three. I don't care. I'm just gonna sit there and you talk about a great book. Not knowing at that moment right to be reading during my covert but like you wrote, right in the book teach me to feel this so much emotion right right and feeling and struggle my nose David and others are like where are you right is going on, how long and were in February, March, April, you November 15 days to believe that words may end here we are.

Yeah. I'm still in the book of Psalms and I got excited every day with I'm not going anywhere to wear sweats all day. No shoes and I get to read the Psalms which is going to be emotive right in here. I got done feel right.

So it was a tool of the whole to build a feel and take the emotions that they were feeling. Connect them to those lifestage I was and we are all in no idea start new yeah like the book of Psalms would be critical to getting through COBIT and that's God's word.

I amazed of how God's word changes our lives right when you read you identify like I have been through the night. God is faithful. It's such a good reminder and I'm relating to your story to because all of our sons were put in NICU. They were gone and I'll never heart get gas after the first one they said you know he had a really traumatic birth and they said we think he has a skull fracture or doing all kinds of tests and I remember being in that hospital room and I'm thinking of listeners who've been in hospital rooms filled with fear yet more even going through marriages was just filled with fear writings and you don't know the future right and I remember I had my Bible with me and I pulled it out. Dave was out of the room. I wish I could remember the Psalm. It was at home that I read to you, and I felt like God was asking me, and you can trust me. Yes, and then I also felt like I had this pressing on my soul that was almost as if he was asking. Can I surrender God's child, Dan, and what we want to do in our lives is to control yeah like I'm in a work this out. I'm in a figure this out. Whether it be our marriage, our kids, our work situation and God's asking asking you trust me and give it to me and so you ended up getting out of the hospital and was born she was healthy yet and so that was incredible. Yeah, you talk about getting home yet and it was hard. Still, it was you. I feel like a cat. If you ever got to anything really traumatic. You don't experience the full weight of that. Usually until it's over. And so people my life. You are helpful in saying your pregnant deal. Some like really hurt things after this all happens as I was a little bit aware of it but was postpartum. I mean not only did I get this in the really traumatic, but I also had a baby and so I had all those other things and I had now every other kid for children four and under. It is really intense and I still went to the Psalms is Psalms were such a lifeline for me and I like everything David this last year is so crazy, I wrote this book prior to anything happening with COBIT that the book was written the summer before and it came out on January 1, 2020. Well, it's just so crazy because it took on a new meaning when we ought with everything that happened last year and then all of the unrest in all of the difficulty in all of the just so many things of like when you are crying out for justice. The Psalms can speak to that helpful to me about the Psalms also is often I take my complaints to somebody else.

Right when we go to other people or my placement has an artist like voice about maybe on the CM the Psalms are telling us it's okay to have these feelings, but you but to direct them to only when you can do anything about it, not to just like third active weight and so for me with the Psalms were really helpful in those moments I came home from the hospital as a kid it gave me language for the English they felt in the fear I felt for the longest time I struggled to my PTSD type symptoms and so I had fear of going anywhere I didn't want to go anywhere without like it just like it's about the road and I never know what can happen or I don't anyone hold my son because he could die.

Everyone not be my room with me, because he could die and so had these really overwhelming feelings of having no control over anything in the Psalms helped me.

Is there one that really kind of jazz that there were what I felt really low with depression. Psalm 88 was really helpful because somebody has no resolution, just kind of ends with darkness where's the darkness, the mentally front Psalm 77 is another one. It is really dark Psalms that seems to imply that it's that the hand of the Lord is against them, and then some 27 has just been really helpful for me where it talks believe us to begin is the Lord knowing to living with hit one of those.

Let's do Psalm 88. Maybe I Could.

If He Does Read Psalm 88 out Loud. I Read out Loud and Interviewed at One Time and I Was like If Your Friends at a Crossing and Said That to You like What Would You Do Yeah like It Would Be a Little Bit Hard to Read, and I Want You to Tell Me so. Your Feelings Just to See You Okay Well Hello Lord God of My Salvation. I Cry out to You by Day I Come to You at Night. Now, Hear My Prayer, Listen to My Cry for My Life Is Full of Troubles and Death Draws near. I'm As Good As Dead like a Strong Man with No Strength Left. They've Left Me among the Dead, and I Lie like a Corpse in a Grave I Am Forgotten and It Keeps Going and I Talk about like Just That Part When You Read That You Think I Feel like Yes for Me, I Felt Forgotten Me.

This Is True, but I Would Feel like Life Is Moved on and I Think Sometimes People like for Me on the outside. I Looked like a Normal Person. I Had Brought My Baby Home Should Be Thankful.

I Was Very Thankful and Grateful and A Lot Of Physical Ramifications. It Was Just a Really Hard Recovery for Me and so the Trauma and Stress of It Put an Abnormal Stress on My Body so My Body Just like Revolted against Me.

Countless Times Now and I'm Almost 4 Years Removed from It. I Will Look Back at Me like There Were Some so Many Things Going on and I Did the Counseling. Eventually, I Was a Really Good Friend Who Can Show Me That I Wasn't Forgotten. I Made an Appointment Multis I Finally I Kept Canceling Exit Is Not Possible to Go and She Was like I'm Going to Watch Her Children and You're Going to Counseling and It Was Really Helpful. I Was in Counseling for a Year. That's When You Know You Really Need a Larger Know about Courtney's Book Teach Me to Feel Your Learning How to Feel like Any Writing Class That Had Apologized to Bryce Right Counselor Can Help with. They Can and I Needed to Rehearse in My Mind the Circumstances and Rehearse That It Didn't End My Worst Nightmare You Know and for Me I Just Kept Going Back to That Worst Nightmare, and I Couldn't Get Out Of the Cycle of It's Never Going to Get Better and Was Helpful That Psalm 88 Is I Want Her to Psalms the Scholars Say That the Psalms Often Have Resolution Trust the Most of Them Start with I Cried to the Lord and Then You Move This Pattern and They Eventually End in Trust, but Psalm 88 Doesn't. And That's Really Helpful for People Because He Said We Don't Often Know When That Trust Came It's Opponent Was Written Don't Know If It Was Written in Afternoon or for His or Nearly. A Few Years and We Put It on Necessary Time People on People to Come to the Conclusion That I Poured out My Heart to the Lord and I Therefore Am Going to Get up and Trust Him or I'm Going to Say.

I Trust Him Helpful That It Doesn't End with the Trust There but I Also Think It's Really Helpful Is That.

But, like I Said Previously, Is That We Often Poor Complaints out to Everybody Else, Yes, but the Fact That He Keeps Going Back to God Shows That He Hasn't Given up That God Is Trustworthy and Just Can't See How God Is Trustworthy, but He's At Least Going to God and for Anyone Who Struggling with Feeling Rightly or Struggling with Anxiety.Clinical Anxiety Be Not General Run-Of-The-Mill.

This Is like a Scary Situation Type of Thing, or Depression, or Things like Artist in the Trauma or Stress or Marital Strife or Whatever It Is Language to Cry out to Him and He Is a Trustworthy Friend and He Will Not Abandon Us and He Will Listen and Turn His Ear toward Death.

Even If We Don't Come to That Trust Right Then at the End of It. I Think Sometimes We Just Keep Going Back. You Just Keep Going Back and You Keep Going Back and That Is When the Trust Eventually Does Come from a Believer, yet He Easily Ready and Willing to Hear Our Cries to Think You Know like You Said When You Walk through the Psalms.

It's Sort of like Going to a Small Group for the First Time in Our Church. We Always Say Sunday Morning so I Can Change Your Life, You Need to Get Connect with Other People When They Do Usually Hear Something like While I Was His Group and I Send This Living Right People Struggle, Just like Me Right and so When You Pick up the Book of Psalms You Find That You like. While There. This Is a Biblical Writer Right Complaining Right Angry Right Lamenting Struggling I've Done That Right Okay Right Isn't like You Submitting Time to Get to the End As I Go. There Is Hope Rightly Do Strike Trust but Again You Don't Know If It Is Written in Afternoon or Several Years, but It Leads You to Go Chaotic and I Can Be Honest and Real. There Is a Go to.

Here's Ours Ago There's That's There and I Can Trust Him Even If I Don't Know the Resolution of Most Situation Right Helpful That Psalm 88 Is It Tells Us Who Wrote It Elsewhere Second Chronicles or Verse in Chronicles a for Thinking These Listed Elsewhere As a Godly Man in the Priesthood of the Singers so We Know He's Known for Being a Company and He Loves God, but That He Has Never Meant Hearsay and Healthy, Lamenting the Psalms Element You Know We Started Talk about How I Don't Feel I Do Feel Totally Field. I Can Remember I Was Alone. You Were Downstairs. I Was in Bed the Next Morning I Had to Get up Early and Go to the Hospital for Back Surgery and I Had Gone in a Year Previously for the Same Back Surgery. They Sent Me Home Say in Your Healed so Long Story Listeners of Her Does Story Is Pretty Amazing. I Thought I Had like a New Testament Miracle I Did You Know but a Year Later You Have the Surgery and Sciatica for All These Months and It Was Really Bad and I Did What I Should Never Have Done That Day I Went Online and Watch That Scared Me to You. With These Tools and Drills and Saws so Only in a Bed That Night and Had Come up and We Have You Get up Early Go to Hospital. All I Know Is I Was so Gripped with Fear. Yes Yes Yes Flooded over Me a Millionaire All by Myself and I Just I Me I Was like I'm Canceling I'm Not Going in.

Some Guys Can Be Spoken around My You Know My Nerve and I Could Be Brilliant. All These Things Come in Your Head and I'm so Not a Fearful Guy. Now I Generally like This. Let's Go for the State but I'm like I'm like Paralyzed. I'm Just Laying There like Grip and the Only Thing I Need to Do Was Read a Psalm Yells like I Want to Read a Psalm Because They Emote Yes That I Did Know What to Read and I Don't Know Why. Turn to Psalm 34.

Oh Yeah, You Know, When I Say I Love That When My Boys and I Memorized It in the First Part of It. Yeah, Yeah.

And I Memorized It for A While, but Not Because It Just Minister Janice David Wrote This and He Said I Sought the Lord and He Answered Me and Delivered Me from All My Fears Millionaire Going Okay This Is What I Needed to Be Reminded Right to Look to Him Are Radiant in Their Faces Shall Never Be Ashamed.

This Poor Man Cried and the Lord Heard Him and Saved Him Out Of All of His Troubles. The Angel of the Lord Encamps around Those Who Fear Him, and Delivers Him Here I Can to Go and See That the Lord but I Can Just Remember Laying There and Just Looking up and Going Okay You Got This Site That You Don't I Said Right This Sounds Corny, I Literally Said You Got My Back Literally No Sure Enough He Did but It Was the Word of God through Us. Psalm like You've Written Right That Allowed Me to Feel Courtney, I'm Thinking of All the People That Are Listening, Especially Moms May Be Nursing Maybe Just Frazzled with Their Kids. Maybe They're Working or Staying at Home, but I Love What You Said You Talked about Going to God First.

Yeah, It's Really Easy for Us As Women to Call a Friend. Oh Yeah Because Our Friends Will Sympathize with Us and They'll Kinda Get Right on Their Call Mom or Sister and I Remember Being a Young Mom Hearing That for the First Time Thinking Okay I'm Not to Call My Friends First or Text. If, Yeah, I Am Going to Go to God for Changed Everything to the Point Where I'm Just Pouring out My Heart Right As the Psalms Do Bring out My Heart to God and Asking Him I Need You I Need to Speak to Me. I Need You to Help Me Right and He Does When We Go to Him. He's like Yes I Am with You I Will Help You. I Hear You I See You, and I Think That's Just a Great Reminder and I Love That You've Given Us Permission to Feel Your Helping Us Learn How to Feel through God's Word. Jesus Is the One Who Gave the Invitation. He's the One Who Said Come to Me All You Who Are Weary and Heavy Laden, and I Will Give You Peace. Take My Yoke upon You, My Burden Is like My Yoke Is Easy and I Think All of Us Have a Culture That Is Routinely Stirring Us Emotionally Need to Remember Where We Go without Where We Take Our Troubled Soul.

We Take It to Jesus and We Reprioritize Our Lives, so We Are Focused on Seeking First the Kingdom and His Righteousness, David and Wilson Are Been Talking with Courtney Right Sick Today about How We Deal with Overflowing Emotion. Courtney Has Written a Book Called Teach Me to Feel It's a Book That Looks at How the Psalms Help Us Know What to Do with Our Emotions, and That's What We Got in Our Family Luck Today Resource Center.

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